1.

1: I've always wanted to date someone who is actually better than me at almost everything.

Always Attract.

It's just so different now, but in such a good way.

2.

1: :')
2: T_T

Riding The Breaks.

Don't do something stupid when you know it's gonna break someones heart.
Don't do something stupid even if it helps relieve you of any pain whatsoever.
Don't do something stupid cause I know you're gonna regret it.

That wasn't smart bub, Just sayin. :\

3.

1: Multi-talent.
2: Sensibility.
3: Humorous.

Why Me?

Why you?
Because I've never met anyone who's made me feel so loved in my life.

You make me smile.
You make me laugh.
It makes me happy.

You make me feel special.
You make me feel golden.
It makes me feel on top of the world.

You say good morning sleepy head.
I say good morning sunshine.
You say I love you.
I say I love you more.
You say that's not fair.
I say sorry.
You punish me.

..But I don't mind the outcome.


All of that is just special, and I saw it the day I met you.
That's why. : )


Is that a better answer, babycakes? ;)

4.

1: Lack of respect.
2: Being fake
3: Clingy-ness.
4: Smoking and Drugs are a no-no.

I've Had Enough; It's Time For Something Real.

Oh dear. I missed a few blogs.
It's all good, cause last night was the most amazing night of my LIFE.
THAT CONCERT WAS FUCKING AMAZING. I'm so glad I spent it with the people I went with. Ily all to death. No lie.

I can't even use words to explain now my night was. I'll just say alskdjfoailkdszlcxlvolkasdfckznmx ,zvaoilksdcvjlkasmdlkfas.,mx zvoaljekdszvasdf.

Pce Out Gurl Scouts.

5.

I don't wanna do this post 'cause everyone is really important to me and play great roles in my life.
Sorry to be a bummer. ;D

Not Loving You Is Harder Than You Know.

It's only been two weeks and you've done more than any of my past relationships. I have never felt this way before, and I think I'm okay with calling it love, even though it's a young age.
Listening to a friend bawl over losing something like what we have, then sitting with you at the park made me think, "can you imagine if I lost all this?"
I will drop dead. Just like what you said today.

Just, thanks so much. For everything. Especially today.
It was amazing.

I won't drop dead as long as we keep things the way they are.
I love you. : )

6.

1: Every single phone call with you.
2: Every text wasted on you.
3: Every secret shared with you.
4: Every lunch skipped for you.
5: Every kiss with you.
6: Every single thing about me erased just for you.

This War Is Ours.

When somethings worth fighting for, I'd fight until the very end. I have something worth fighting for, and believe me, I would never give up when it comes to fighting for someone important to me.
I partially get you, but I partially don't. I know those good feelings you're talking about; those feelings where if you don't have this one thing, you will never ever feel complete. This certain someone or something is such a huge part of your life, you'd be nothing without it.
That feeling where you feel like you're on top of the world because of that someone, and your powerless to stop it. They will do anything to keep you happy.

Losing all that? It must suck. A LOT. That's the part that I haven't really experienced yet, and I really hope I don't. I know how difficult this must be for you, because if I were to lose what's so important to me, God knows what I'd do.
I can't do much more than just stay on the phone and listen to you cry, but I know for a fact that he still loves you very much, and everything will be okay.

Feel better. <3

7.

1: Jesse Allan.
2: Jesse Allan.
3: Jesse Allan.
4: Jesse Allan.
5: Jesse Allan.
6: Jesse Allan.
7: Jesse Allan.

Danger Line.

I've never felt this way about someone.
And for me to go up to face my mother is a lot.
But I'm doing this for us, cause you're most definately worth it.

I don't wanna hide something like what we have; I wanna tell the whole world I'm the happiest little fuck in the world. I wanna tell the whole world that what I have is amazing. So amazing, I can't even put it into words.

I love you so much, and no matter what happens, what she says, nothing's going to change.
We made a promise.

I love you Jesse.

8.

1: Just be yourself.
2: Honesty goes a long way.
3: Give me space when I need it.
4: Make an effort of some sort.
5: Letters are nice.
6: Don't be afraid to tell me you love me.
7: Music is important to me; Support it.
8: Make me feel like I'm on top of the world sometimes..maybe.

I Bought A Ticket To The End Of The Rainbow.

This passed week,

That bond between us; our chemistry, has gone over the top. I've never felt more open to someone in my life.
You're different.

But I've already told you that.

I love you Jesse. ;]

9.

1: I like to think I'm a rockstar.
2: If you say what I like hearing, I get real shy.
3: Trust issues on certain subjects.
4: Has the greatest friends ever.
5: Refuses to talk to homophobes.
6: Vein fetish. ;D
7: Hate's it when people ask me what's wrong. (Don't remind me, and just make me feel better.)
8: Easily fascinated.
9: Is the luckiest person in the world.

July 23rd.

"... My hand has been resting on this page with a pen in my hand for the longest time, but honestly, it's cause I don't know what to say.
That letter was really nice. D:
Sad face? Cause I miss him even more now. But at the same time, I can't stop smiling. : )
haha he's exactly like me; constantly replaying songs that reminds us of eachother, being so happy that we have someone to think about all the time, and just missing that feeling.
Well, I hope you know that I am happy, as happy as I could ever be.
Cause well, not only are things going well for me personally, but like, my parents called from the Bahamas and they seem sooo fucking happy. It wasn't just this phone call; it was every time they called.
I think me and Adri stress them out. >_>
haha I have to bring this entry back to Jesse cause I needa show him this. tutut
Bottom line is, that letter made my fucking trip, and I'm so glad I know someone like him.
-Night. "

10.

1: Calm the fuck down.
2: It'll be okay.
3: Ouch.
4: Really?
5: It's not our problem.
6: Thank you.
7: You'll find someone.
8: I get you.
9: I want the old you back.
10: I love you so much.

So Peter, You've Become A Pirate?

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession


Do et.

Fiction.

I love you too Jesse.

Awake And Dreaming.

For a good few months now, I've been waiting for someone to pour a bucket of water on my head to wake me up from this dream I'm having. I've finally realized that life is as real as it can get right now, and that it is most definately not a dream. I wished for what I've wanted for the fair amount of years I've been a teenager, and I've finally got it, and I know without a doubt it's not going anywhere. Because there is trust between me and this wish.
You're more real than ever and just that one fact feels perfect. Though this isn't a dream, it sure feels like one. That's how high off the ground I feel when I'm with you, and it's great. No matter what people say, or who tries to stop this, I refuse to have a bucket of water poured on my head.
Then again, I have discovered that this dream has become a reality, and absolutely nothing can rain on my parade.


This must explain why I don't dream, huh.. ;]
Goodnight.

Thirteen.

Fuck you Friday the 13th.
You haven't given me bad luck.
You've given me inconvenience. -__-

At least I had a good day. LOL

-Chimo.

Dressed In Poetry.

So there's this poet.


I've got him now. >;D

Eleven.

It's so great to be back! I have enjoyed every moment ever since I got here. Seeing familiar faces, familar places, and having those feelings where you feel like you know what will happen next. Somethings good, somethings bad, somethings so amazing you feel like you're being lifted off your feet.

Why are you building a wall between things though? It disappoints me that you can't be honest. I've known it from the start that you were going to do this. Why this one though? Why not anything in the past? It's already all behind me, so your thoughts won't effect me when throwing interesting statements.

Hearing your thoughts through other people and not saying it directly to me is like saying "Oh yeah, and here's the hole in my armour." I really thought you'd know me better as to actually talk to me when something bothers you, but clearly that wouldn't help now, would it?

Accept the fact that I'm as happy as ever and that you need to make room for one more. It seems like there was already room, but you're putting your legs on that seat so that you take up two, so that there's only one person painted in this picture.

I listen to you.
Yet I feel like you can't hear me out sometimes.

This Remains Untitled.

"Just knowing you're out there thinking about me,
Caring about me, makes me feel safe
So all my fears, all my yesterdays wash away,
And only hope remains in the promise of your embrace.
You make me thank god for every mistake I ever made,
Because each one led me down the path that brought me to you.
And when we finally come together, I want you to hold me all night.
Stroke my hair, tell me I'm a woman, and show me you're a man.
Until there was only now; you, and I, and now.
I do not ask of the night explanations, I wait for it, and it envelops me
And so you and bread and light and shadow are.
I'll be back when the wind and fates and chance bring me back."

- Pablo Neruda

Rock n Roll Ain't Noise Pollution.

I thought this day would never arrive, but it has, and I'm happy.
I can't wait to see everything and everyone. Being in a place for a long time where you're not used to being, not used to seeing, and just flat out, out of your comfort zone, you can't blame me for being happy to leave. I like it here and all, but I don't love it.

I see you online right now, but I refuse to wake you up this early. I can wait. Plus, you did say you were very tired. I'm doing it cause I care so don't hurt me. >: D

I'm excited to see Patty, my parents, my room, playing music in that room until my fingers bleed, but most importantly, I really miss the people closest to me.
Yes that includes you. >:3
If I wake you up, time would move at Godspeed, cause it's different when I talk to you, but I'd rather not wake you up; I can wait. : )

Sorry I haven't been blogging, but I never know what to say, plus I get a tad carried away reading yours. Haven't missed a single one. Haha. But when I get home, I promise I'll try to write a LOT more often, especially if and when you go on that trip of yours. It'll be my turn. >: D

I'll see you soon, and talk to you sooner. =]

Chimo. :3